Today I was confronted with something I did wrong. It was valid, which makes it suck even more. But I owned up, apologized, and tried to move along. Several hours later, I've clearly not moved on.
Tonight I was confronted with something that I did right, couched in a way that made me feel like I did something wrong, or that there was no possible way that I even might have done the right thing.
For the record? I did. the. right. thing.
And I wonder why I have authority issues.
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For me, this is the hardest part of ministry - that some right actions are not what people want.
And, I also hate it when I do something wrong - particularly as pastor.
Your post touched a nerve...(which in this case is the right thing).
(((pinkshoes)))
i don't know if i did a wrong thing, but i have a parishioner who certainly thinks i did, but as he keeps sending passive aggressive e-mails that are vague and confusing, claiming he is "dropping it", i don't think i'll ever know.
i do know that i have handled the follow up VERY right and yet he doesn't seem to think so.
sigh.
i have a really hard time when i really do make a mistake. takes me hours to let it go.
love to you.
The last time I saw my spiritual director, she said, "Is having issues with authority really a bad thing? Is it really a problem?"
You're in my prayers.
Ugh. Why is it always so complicated? Here's to doing the right thing even when people think it isn't and to owning our mistakes. You go!
Mrs. M, I think I love your spiritual director. Because I know two things: 1. women have more difficulty exerting their proper authority, 2. men have more difficulty with over-exerting their proper authority. So a woman's challenge is to grow into, to stretch, always a good pain, not a bad thing. Never a "done" thing, just an "always growing in the Spirit into who God made me" thing.
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